Light at the end of the tunnel

"Sometimes all you need is a warm and a tight hug!"

  I am at an age where being Confused is a constant state of mind. I am at an in between age, I am neither an adult nor a teenager.I no longer fall into the category of "being cool" and trust me it's a rather bitter pill to swallow to accept this fact. Where, at one point I was dragged to socialize with my relatives, truth be told Today I equally enjoy meeting the older relatives as well as the kids or people of my same age  (if my mom reads this, I bet you she'd be in a state of shock) until and unless they start asking questions ,even I don't know the answer of. The irony of it all is Whereas I am certain of the things I don't want in my life , I have no idea of what I actually want in life. Even logging onto facebook has become a scary errand you end up reading posts that is bound to make you feel bad about yourself. My newsfeed is filled with friends getting engaged, some even having babies, some making it big by working at some of the best companies.

And here I am , absolutely clueless of what I want and the only relationship I am in is the one that I have with my phone. Yeah FML! No matter where I go the one question I am always asked is "When are you getting married?!?" To all the aunties and uncles " I don't know ,When am I getting married and Thankyou for scaring the hell out of me" Even when I mentally accept that it is okay for me to think about marriage , I immediately put aside this notion thinking of all the things my mother still scolds me for. I am still a kid at heart , how do you expect me to handle my own household?!? I still have to cross out a lot of things off my bucket list. I am at an age where on one hand  I have begun to understand the value of money , on the other hand I desperately want that Zara top or something that interested me on the online shopping portals. I hate asking for money from my parents and yet I have too little of my own. I no longer have the stamina or enthusiasm as I had when I was a teenager and I am always scared of getting older.

I am at an age , where I am supposed to be responsible and careful , yet I still end up losing half of the things I own and , my room and my closet is never clean . I want to be independent yet I am dependent on my mother for every small little thing. I am nowhere close to living my "dream life" , and when I see the "not so cool " at school kids doing well in life I just feel like hibernating from the world. I am at an age where I want my parents to be proud of me. I want to connect all the dots but I have no idea where to find the conjoining line.I am at an age where the Name of the Birthday Album has changed from the age to the year. Like , Birthday '2014 unlike "My 18th Birthday". I have grown up, when did this happen?!? And How do I make it stop, If I could learn one magic trick I'd really want to learn, how to make time stop . I am nowhere close to the plan I set out for me , I am still a lazy bum, I feel like I am in this tunnel where I don't know where the direction of my life is going yet I feel there will be a light at the end of the tunnel that would guide me through. So here's hoping that eventually everything falls into place, and the state of mind changes to "Stable" from "Confused" . Until then , Laugh at the Confusion , live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason...

Rewind...

Rain always makes you ponder over things... While I sit back comfortably writing this blog post on my iPad...I miss the time that has gone by. Its so strange because as a kid I always wanted to grow up and do the things I was not allowed to do back then.I used to think being an adult was amazing, so much so that I constantly reminded myself that it was only a few more years left for me to be an adult. Little did I know that it was the worst idea ever, Growing up is a very bad idea. PERIOD. Today I am at my desired age and all I want to do is go back in time. I want to Go back to the 90's because I feel that was the best time to be.We are from a generation that has had best of both the worlds. I want to go down memory lane and remember all the things that still brings a smile on my face

1. The sitcoms like Hum Paanch, Hip Hip Hurray, Dekh Bhai Dekh, Jungle Book or watching
Mahabharata and Ramayana with the entire family was the best thing to have happened to Telly tube.
     

                              

                                      

2. Relationships were so much easier to sort out. We could find out who loved us or who were our worst enemies merely from taking out flames with that particular person. That was the only compatibility test that one had to surpass.

3. The only brand of stationery familiar to us was Nataraj.

 

4. Toblerone was the one chocolate that was considered to be "International" and remember the box of assorted chocolates our relatives from abroad got us.

5. The red pack of the Phantom Cigarette Candy was bound to make us look cool.

6.Even the adverts were so familiar to us that we did not mind humming to the tunes of Vicco Bajradanti, Or Doodh si safedi Nirma se aaye,and Thanda literally meant Coca- Cola.

7. Buying a packet of Lays merely to collect the tazos and showing it off in front of our friends was the mandatory thing to do.

8. Covering your  books and  notebooks with the brown paper before the commencement of the new
session was so tiresome yet so satisfying.

9.Playing Mario well and killing that dragon and saving the princess was our measure of testing someone's capibility.

10. Playing Ludo,Akkar Bakkar Bambey Bo,Antakshari,Hop-scotch,Name Place Animal Thing and Carrom were the only team games we knew
 

11.Printers were not so common and all our school projects pictures were from the cut outs of the chart papers.

12. The First tattoo ever embarked on us was from the back print of that of the Fusen Gum Chewing gum.

13. Officially using the pen was a big deal. It meant Serious Business.

14. We had a stack of cassettes with Side A and Side B of our favorite songs.The recording feature on our tape recorder always kept us in awe.Using the Walkman with our headphones on was our "Me-Time"

15. Flying was only for the richie rich.The mode of transport familiar to us was the Train Journeys and we were even made to write an essay on that.

16. A particular time at night was alloted to talk to our relatives as the STD rates were lower at that time.We have all visited a PCO to make a phone call.

17. We all had a big fat landline telephone and a cordless phone with 2 lines.

18. We used to beg our relatives to change the batteries on our game boy so we could play Tetris or Snake.

19. Candies like Poppins, Hajmola ,choki,Nutties ,Amul Chocolate ,Pan Pasand were some of the sweetest treats.

20. Wearing Keds to school and coloring it with chalk to make it appear whiter so that we wouldn't be punished later.

21. Owning a Pencil Box that was the coolest made you feel superior.And how can we forget the all in one multicolored pens and the fancy erasers.

22. Using the rim of the stairs as a slide so that you reach faster than the person coming down of it.

                                            

23. Buying Ice Candies on our way back home from school quenched our thirst,or eating a bar of chocolate bar or an orange stick and sucking it till it became one large cube of ice.

Don't you agree with me 90's was the best time to be just writing this brought a smile on my face only if time travel was as easy as the rewind button.

I can't believe I actually wanted to grow up...

We are...

We have always been protected by innumerable layers.The first one being that of a mother's love and care.She is the one who we owe our existence to.She is the one who sacrificed months of sleep just to make sure we sleep well.She is the one who chose to stay back at home to keep a check on our home-works,our bags being set according to the timetable and missed out on various occasions where she could have had fun.In the wake of organizing our Birthday parties,she completely forgot about hers.She is the one who acts as our alarm clock, She is the one who is our personal chef,our personal chauffeur.She is the one who acts as a punching bag whenever we are mad or down.She understands and smiles it off.She is the one who holds our hands while we are sick.When we get reprimanded by our fathers for some mischief of ours,she sits in the corner and weeps her eyes out.Whenever we lose something she acts as the "Google" search bar and always seems to find the missing item.She is the one who is on our service 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.She stops living her life,she lives ours instead.She doesn't meet her friends for months or goes out to pamper herself.She is the one....I would probably take an eternity to point out the generosity of our mothers and even that wouldn't be enough...Despite that, when ever we are asked "What our mothers do?!?" All we come up with is " My Mom is just a home-maker".
She is not JUST a homemaker.She is everything and beyond.So,take a moment or two do something special for her and make her feel valued. Say " Thankyou" to her for always being there.Make her feel loved like she always does.With our base layer being ever so strong,Nobody can ever shake us.
The second layer Is that of a Grand-Mothers love.She is the one who constantly worries we haven't had enough food even with our plates full.She is the one who imparts wisdom upon us through the numerous stories she shares with us.She is the one who always thinks of us as being right and wonderful.
The next layer is that of a sister.She is the one who fights with us every day and night but if someone else raises a finger at us she prepares herself for a World War.She is our first friend,She is the one who opens the gates for us late at night after a party.She is the one who listens to all our problems.She is the one who is a prop to all our experiments.She is the one who always looks out for us.She is the one who saves every penny to buy us a special Birthday gift.
The next layer is that of a wife's.She is the one who leaves her family,her parents,her home to start a whole new world with us.She is our confidante.She is the one who knows what we need.She is the one who waits for us to have that one meal together.She is the one who knows us better than we know ourselves .She is the one who bears with us through all our flaws.She is the one who makes our world hers and nurtures it with love and care.She makes everything look Beautiful.
The next layer is that of a daughter.A daughter is the one us makes feel complete.Daughters are synonymous to innocence and warmth.She is God's blessing showered upon us.She is the one who makes pretty cards for us.She is the one who thinks of her father to be a superhero.She is the one who gives Life a meaning.
We are all protected by these multiple layers of love and warmth.With even one layer missing our world will fall flat on our face.A woman is a daughter,a wife ,a mother,a sister, a grandmother.She is everything and beyond.She can love endlessly and tirelessly.All she expects in return is to be treated with respect.She is not an object.She deserves the right to do whatever she wants to do without anybody dictating what is expected of her.Dont set standards of a good woman,Make the world a better and a worthy place for her.Make her feel loved and protected.Give her the credit she deserves.Raise your sons to be a better man,make them understand the value of a woman.Make them understand that if a woman can give birth to a new life,Nothing in this world is impossible for her.To all the girls and the women out there embrace your womanhood...Love yourself...Be yourself.Dont think of the world to be a ruthless place because of a few nincompoops.There is still a lot of good left in the world,never let anyone tell you what you can or cannot do.Just be a better version of yourself.
To all the men out there,it's high time you understand the value of a woman,the power of a woman.Treat her well not just on Women's day but every single second every single day.Make her feel important,express your gratitude for her because without her everything around would be lifeless,dirty and messy.

Happy Women's Day!

Ironical Enough?!?

What is it that the heart desires?!? Why does one feel alone at times... Why is it that Life isn't perfect?!?
Why do we wait for that one touch to  make us feel complete?!? Why cannot everyday be a " Sunday?!?"
Why cannot we always stay with our favorite people?!? Why does life have to be so complicated?!?
Why is it that only when we experience trials and tribulations do we understand the true essence of happiness?!?
Why do we only learn from the mistakes we make?!? What is it that the heart desires?!?
Why are we always on a search for something?!?
Why is it that we are all scared of death...even though life is not always a musical symphony...
When we are at our happiest selves why do we resort to tears to emote our innermost feelings?!?
Are these the lessons taught to us by God for us to reflect on the true meaning of life... Probably it is!...

There are so many questions we ask ourselves...over the years we have developed our own textbook of experiences...and we often turn the pages of that textbook to find out the answers to all our questions... But as we keep moving ahead a line,a paragraph and even a page gets added to our Book of Life ... The beauty of it is that each one of us has An altogether different book with our own set of stories to share with the World.

At the end of the day... All we want is the answer to our question. What we do not understand is that the Universe in its own way through it's own signs tries to send out the answers that we are all looking for. All we have to do is connect the dots and go with the flow! 😊